The truth, the other, and fire

I started telling the truth a few days ago. The truth shall set you free. The truth hurts.

I have to be authentic to myself, but I also realize that with autonomy and power and individuality comes afraidness and loneliness and pain and loss.

I dreamed last night that there were fires all around me and it was in structures(buildings) very close to me, and people that I cared about might perish or get hurt.

I feel like I leapt over/off that cliff, and damn it! my astrology reading is tonight! and I thought I could/should wait!!!!

What's up with the concept and aliveness and feeling of Eros, or passion? What does it mean and represent?

I think the 'other' is something that's hard-wired into me, through my Dad. My Mom held the shadow side of it, I think. It's about being into multiplicities and having the diversity (that's a nice way to put it March!) of many - never a dull moment! or maybe it's also about dualism and polarities - yeah! That rang a bell! Oh, and all this multiple stuff specifically in relationships...my mom and dad and keith and steve and alice and cebelle and evonne and me and al and and russ and morgan and kyle and erin...I don't see anything wrong with having multiple partners and numerous intimate relationships at the same time, basically. I learned it when I was born, grew up with it always, and fought it off/threw it away w/r, but you know, it's a part of me and I have to be honest about it and deal with it - because it's a part of me and I don't think it's going away.

So if this famous 'other' is really just a part of yourself....who is that other March? What's his or her name? What are they doing in your life?
So to see this other, be in touch with it, I almost need to look at me (the sun) and then take a look the shadow, the opposite? Does it always usually (perfect word choices there Sherlock!) have to be the opposite?

I feel a touch bit mad (like crazy mad) right now....