Sunday, January 14, 2007

Dumping out some notebook entries...

11/14/06
The ghost field - maybe is the intertwining and interaction of nature and consciousness - becoming, singulating, the means of which are inherent in any particular characteristics of BOTH the quantum potential and the outcome of the being at it's fruition.
Yes, then energy remains after singulation - in a quanta of light the photon is 'given off' then dark energy remains.
From Born's autobio = "Einstein said approx. that the waves are only there to show the way to the corpuscular light-quanta, and talked in this sense of a ghost field which determines the probability for a light quanta...to take a definite path. We owe to Born the beginning insight that (a mathematical symbol is here; looks like a capital Y) itself, unlike electromagnetic fields, has no direct physical reality."

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

April's Dream

Like all dreams, some parts and sequences are clearer than others....

I think we were staying in a French hotel, but it was close to the German border, if it was indeed in France. It was an older, 8 or 9 story brick building, but had that lovely European classical styling in its touches, like marble floors in the bathroom, and fine hand-built wood clothing chests in the dressing room. I think we were on the 5th floor. We had checked in late the previous evening, coming to the hotel directly from a local restaurant that you had recommended we try for dinner. We had been drinking good French champagne (my favorite) that night too, during dinner, and had brought another bottle up to the room to share and savor more fully, together, alone.

When I first opened my eyes that morning, I remember feeling the sun shining heatedly near my feet at the end of the bed. It was blazingly bright sunshine, and it must have been in the springtime too, because the double-sided balcony doors were slightly open, and the pale grassy yellow gauze curtains, lined with white silk, were blowing open and wide from the breeze coming into the room. It was fresh and clear outside, with a beautiful blue sky peeking over and around the trees that lined the street in front of the hotel. From the position of the sun, it must have been near mid-day. There was a small bouquet of riotously yellow daffodils in a cobalt blue glass vase on the night stand, next to our empty champagne bottle.

I stretched out a little, waking up slightly, and noticed that you weren’t in the bed next to me. I straightened out the front of my black lace and satin chemise, and thought the bed and the sheets felt so nice, like good quality Egyptian cotton, and I pushed them down and aside as I curled up slightly, and turned toward the sunshine and the open doors. It was then that I heard your footsteps come across the room, and I felt you kneel down behind me on the bed.

Your hands and fingers were so warm when you reached and felt deep between my inner thighs that they almost all became one, and I felt my belly tighten as I drew in a deep breathe of pleasure at your probing. We stayed there for awhile, without moving much, as I continued to feel the almost imperceptible movements of your fingers inside me, and with every slight deviation, I grew more and more intensely sensitive to my sharpening desire to have you possess me. Finally, just when I was going to pull you around and towards me, I heard you say something, low, almost under your breath; in French? Or German? I turned slightly and looked into your eyes, asking what you had said. “You are ripe; ready for me”, you answered, as you started to caress me fully now, placing both your hands firmly around my hips, pushing the chemise up and over my waist, over my breasts. You got up on your knees, reaching down and cupping each of my breasts in turn with your hands, licking and softly biting my nipples, making a wider and wider arc with your tongue, moving up slowly to the shallow of my neck, kissing and softly biting me, as I arched my back and grew more responsive. I was breathing more heavily too, my lips moist and full, as you kissed me, our mouths meeting and our tongues intertwining. As you stopped and started kissing me again and again, I opened my eyes and saw the blatant desire for me flash across your face, and I tried to turn over and give my backside to you fully, but you stopped me, saying, no, I want to look at you, to see your face.

You entered me then, from half behind and half astride, my thighs parted slightly, you over me, above me.

I don’t much remember how long we stayed in that position making love, I only remember my building climax and it’s luscious surrender, the simultaneous unraveling of a languid sweetness overcoming me, glowing, expanding, radiating between the two of us, as you rose and fell over me. I heard your breathing quicken and saw your eyes close, seeing that look come across your face again and your brow tighten, feeling your exquisite and tender, almost pained tension, gather nearer to its release. You were beautiful in your passion for me, with me. At last I felt the larger shudder emanate from your entire body, as you pulled your glistening and ruby red cock out of me, and paused, holding it in your hand, letting it fall, as your seeds and their juices fell like midsummer raindrops on to and over the hollow of my belly and hip.....

Saturday, December 23, 2006

The thrills of having a geriatric pet

Throwing the ball:
The older dog doesn't exactly stop on a dime any more. When we throw the ball for our dog, she runs (well sort of a run) and as she gets to the ball, her legs simply fold under her body and she falls on the ball.

Retrieving the thrown-but-now-lost ball:
The older dog often has limited or decreased vision, so following up on the command of "get the ball" often is painful to watch in the older dog. Our dog mostly tries the 'circle around' approach - circle around the yard with a slightly bewildered look on her face, while we stand around and yell get the ball, get the ball, get the ball...all to no avail. (I'm sure this is quite entertaining to someone).

Monday, November 27, 2006

make it easy....

Easy, by The Barenaked Ladies


Singulation does provide the philosophical moment of creation, the scientific (quasi?) moment between free will and determinism, between becoming and being, between abstract and concreteness, between infinity and finiteism. As Arthur Young says in Mathematics, Physics, and Reality, "we are not filling in the continuum, we are dividing it." (Italics his) This process of division relates directly to von Neumann's mathematical 'cut'. This 'cut', this dividing, happens at Planck's constant, a smaller than small abstract mathmatical space along the three dimensions, which in so doing, sets the 4th dimension, time, in place, and provides forwardness and a linear reality to our consciousness, our sense of reality. (It may also provide momentum, but I'm not sure about this yet.)

Monday, November 20, 2006

Pt. Reyes and Michael

I went to Pt. Reyes before Thanksgiving, the North Beach area - the weather was cooperative (no fog) and it was beautiful! As I walked for awhile, listening to the waves, looking for shells and pretty pebbles, I thought about the next generation of people in the world and how *you* my dear, are doing your best to effect positive change in the world by working with young children as a teacher! I noticed how we used to be able to find sand dollars aplenty, shells of other varieties too, but no more. I thought of all the enviromentally related articles in the news lately too - the New Yorker has an excellent one in this month's issue about CO2 uptake, the climate, the weather, the oceans, the whole damn planet is changing, and not for the better.

Sigh. But you are working with the next generation, you are a public school teacher - you are working hard, diligently, passionately. Little ol me appreciates it! I only can imagine how you plan (let alone *do*) what you do: to institute change and learning through working with children, in a system that is bogged down in bureaucracy and regulations, etc. Yikes! For me, to me, it all starts and ends with care and love - that's where the light bulb lights, where consciousness is changed, how evolution proceeds in the positive. And that's where you come in - you are doing a a great job.

Thank you Michael. Thank you for being a great teacher.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Dancing with the intellect

Intellect causes me no pain.

Intellect expands me.

Intellect transcends the boundaries of my emotions.

Intellect serves the greater good.

Intellect causes me no pain.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

No date...(maybe in August?)

Let in the pastoral
slowly, not operatic and cacophony like it was before,
the last time
a movement gone by,
coming back, fulfilled.

Turn me round
gently, not betrothen like
invite me
bring me to you, yielding,
coming back, fulfilled.

Stir me
between the perishable
and the absolute
belong to me
between the sun and it's shadow,
coming back, fulfilled.

Open me up
resolute and refined
intrinsically harboring like
a wish,
coming back, fulfilled.

From Brian's class and ...

The Cosmic Code - Hans Pagels
Personal Knowledge- Polanyi
The Ever Present Origin - John Gibson
The End Game - Samuel Beckett
Robert Lofton
Brian Goodwin
Stuart Kaufman
Steven Wineberg

John N. Findlay - Ascent to the Absolute

Archetypical Process - Griffin
Dawkins Dennett - The First Three Minutes

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Heisenberg

"The other, stemming from Plotinus, describes it, without any reference to parts, as the translucence of the eternal splendor of the one through the material phenomenon.
...
But if such a unitary principle of all things exists, then -- and this was the next step along this line of thought -- one is straightaway brought up against the question how it can serve to account for the fact of change. The difficulty is particularly apparent in the celebrated paradox of Parmenides. One being is; non-being is not. But if only being is, there cannot be anything outside this being that articulates it or can bring about changes. Hence being will have to be conceived as eternal, uniform, and unlimited in space and time. The changes we experience can thus be only an illusion...In addition to being, non-being can still exist as a possibility, namely as the possibility for movement and form, or, in other words, as empty space. Being is repeatable, and thus we arrive at the picture of atoms in the void -- the picture that has since become infinitely fruitful as the foundation for natural science."

"The next step along this road was taken by Plato with the formulation of his theory of Ideas. Plato contrasts the imperfect shapes of the corporeal world of the senses with the perfect forms of mathematics; the imperfectly circular orbits of the stars, say, with the perfection of the mathematically defined circle. Material things are the copies, the shadow images, of ideal shapes in reality; moreover, as we should be tempted to continue nowadays, these ideal shapes are actual because and insofar as they become "act"-ive in material events. Plato thus distinguishes here with complete clarity a corporeal being accessible to the senses and a purely ideal being apprehensible not by the senses but only through acts of mind. Nor is this ideal being in any way in need of man's thought in order to be brought forth by him. On the contrary, it is the true being, of which the corporeal world and human thinking are mere reproductions. As their name already indicates, the apprehension of ideals by the human mind is more an artistic intuiting, a half-conscious imitation, than a knowledge conveyed by the understanding. It is a reminiscence of forms that were already implanted in this soul before its existence on earth. The central Idea is that of the Beautiful and the Good, in which the divine becomes visible and at sight of which the wings of the soul begin to grow. A passage in the Phaedrus expresses the following thought: the soul is awe-stricken and shudders at the sight of the beautiful, for it feels that something is evoked in it that was not imparted to it from without by the senses, but has always been already laid down there in a deeply unconscious region."

- Werner Heisenberg, "Science and the Beautiful"


BE STILL MY HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, November 05, 2006

More on Bohm

From the Undivided Universe:

Even though many physicists feel that making such calculations is basically what physics is all about, it is our view that the intuitive and imaginative side which makes the whole theory intelligible, is as important in the long run as is the side of mathematical calculation". "The correspondence principle then demonstrates the consistency of the quantum theory with this presupposition...because of the need to presuppose the classical level (and perhaps eventually an observer) there is no way in the conventional interpretation to give an consistent account of quantum cosmology."

Singulation then is a many-worlds interpretation - many worlds not embedded within, but on a continuum from classical to quantum.
It's a model of a wave collapsing into a particle - starting at the singulatity and happening very, very fast initially then slowly (with cooling?) slowing down, depending on size and gravitational factors. (With longer times this approxs. our stochastic trajectories).

These ideas are connected with our ontological interpretation by means of a mode of a particle as a sequence of incoming and outgoing waves, with successive waves very close to each other.

"Do what the many worlds interpretation has not succeeded in doing adequately, i.e. - to show that the quantum theory contains a 'classical world' within it."

See Ghirardi, Rimini and Weber for non-linear non-local modifications of Schrodinger's idea; that would cause the wave function/the collapse process is significant only for large scale systems containing many particles.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Higher, further out...

Higher, further out
bits falling
behind

journeys end

no, she slyly smiled, it's only just begun.

Reading Bohm's Undivided Universe now...
Ascent of Science by Brian Silver
Mathematics, Physics and Reality, by Authur Young
The Philosophy of Space and Time, by Hans Reichenbach
A Sophisticate's Primer of Relativity, by P.W. Bridgman
The Undivided Universe, by D. Bohm and B.J. Hiley
Catching the Light: The Entwined History of Light and Mind, by Arthur Zajonc
The Essential David Bohm, Ed. by Lee Nichol
Quantum Applications: Essays in Honour of David Bohm
The Genius of Science: A Portrait Gallery, by Abraham Pais



Knowledge is ALL, intellect the key to the lock within the absolute, the eternal.


How do I know that? I just do.

I stand proud and strong, I reach for the sky, I feel and resonate with the transcendence to leave the physical plane and ascend, inward and upward, to the most pure, pure intellect, pure mind. My end and the world's beginning - my end is mind, the world's beginning is nature.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Singulation is a many-worlds interpretation

What really sucks sometimes is that the whole process of singulation seems like that psychological representation of (is it Freud's picture?)an iceberg - and the picture shows just a little bit of the top of the iceberg peeking out from the water, the massive majority of it submerged below. I offer up this analogy because I sometimes have to just sigh and shrug my shoulders - as the iceberg melts, more understanding and knowledge comes - similar to what is happening to me, within me, from trying to give birth to the singulation process. Specifically, I have to continue to read and understand soooooooooooooooo much of physics, or at least gain some perfunctory understanding of conceptual physics, so I can even intellectually frame and most importantly, articulate what I already know, albeit that it is submerged within my soul.
Sigh - this leads to me finally reading Bohm and Hiley's book and seeing that singulation is a many-worlds interpretation - with a twist.

More on this soon.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Updating the Table/Continuum


OK -
Maybe mind isn't the all and backdrop, maybe human consciousness is just one side of the continuum - on the Quantum side of the table, and that would put NATURE on the Classical side.


So from the microworld, moving forward to the macroworld view = nature is classical, large, gravity/gravitational effects, slower.

And on the other side = mind is quantum, faster, etc.


Reading: The Undivided Universe - David Bohm and B.J. Hiley




And from E. Schrodinger's What is Life? essays; The only possible alternative is simply to keep to the immediate experience that consciousness is a singular of which the plural is unknown; that there is only one thing and that, what seems to be a plurality, is merely a series of different aspects of this one thing, produced by a deception (the Indian MAJA); the same illusion is produced in a gallery of mirrors, and in the same way Gaurisankar and Mt. Everest turned out to be the same peak seen from different valleys".

Monday, October 16, 2006

writing and speaking and research...

You know, as I age I find it increasingly difficult to write on or think some subject through 'on demand'; unfortunately, like as in a class writing assignment.

My mind has to brew, like making a cup of coffee. The lecture is the water, which needs to come to a boil, and then it gets poured through and over the coffee grounds, which is like my mind. After it gets a change to seep through and become coffee, then it's finished and tada! You have hot, fresh coffee and hopefully, to finish up this analogy, I have a paper written.

LOL!

Monday, October 09, 2006

Truth and reality

Truth is reality, is mind, is a whole of all consciousness, like the warp and weave of the fabric of life.

Only when we speak the truth does it start to interact and change our environment and consciousness - Truth can be compared to the subconscious - submerged, flowing, connected, but not erupted and 'out' like our consciousness is - not interacted with.

Truth is merged and flowed together within ALL of our unconsciousnesses.

Letting the truth 'out', in effect, changes it, changes all that interacts with it - sorta like singulation. Truth is a wave in origin - upon speaking, it becomes a particle.