New year

Hardly (well almost), but it's been almost a new year since I last posted here.

Again, like all my life, sooo very much has happened...I got laid off from my job in mid-April was probably one of the most important recent events (and really not laid off but that's what we decided to call it), some people in my family moved back to my home in NC, which is good for the house to get real people in it who care for it, and then I've become quite obsessed with what I call catching up with my sexuality after being married for way too long. Lots of tantalizing and dynamic obsessions in that area for me over the last year.

Time marches along. What still seems like/feels like yesterday isn't yesterday in the technical sense.

My pains, my heart hurts, seem timeless and always right there, which I realized again recently when in looking at the calendar, remembering and knowing back to J and my escapades with him were nearly 7 years ago now! Wow. So much more painful relationship stuff has floated by and gone under the bridge since then hehe...But seriously, again the theme of love given and love lost, openness shunted to pain, honesty deceived...those themes sing still, with a slightly awkward and melancholy voice that never hesitates, only modulates in volume.

What am I going to do with the rest of my professional life? Or am I doing to dispense with my former professional life and make a new one? The latter is seemingly more and more realistic and has greater potential for me being happy.

I guess I'm a bit grief sticker about losing my job of 10 years. Employment like that is similar to a relationship. Once it's gone sour it's hard not to place blame and have hard feelings. Well, they fucked them themselves, so...

Still want to sell/buy/consign antiques, smalls, art, fiber, furniture, rugs, knick knacks, etc. I went to the Concord Flea Market a few times to sell but I think everyone was looking for something for nothing, and that's not exactly a good match for my market. I'm looking into other flea markets too.