Whitehead and Consciousness article by Stuart Hameroff

"In the quantum realm (and the boundary between the quantum and classical worlds remains mysterious) objects may exist in two or more states or places simultaneously—more like waves than particles and governed by a “quantum wave function”. This property of multiple coexisting possibilities, known as quantum superposition, persists until the superposition is measured, observed or interacts with the classical world or environment. Only then does the superposition of multiple possibilities “reduce”, “collapse”, “actualize”, “choose” or “decohere” to specific, particular classical states. Early experiments seemed to show that even if a machine measured a quantum superposition, the multiple possibilities persisted until the machine’s results were observed by a conscious human. This led leading quantum theorists including Bohr, Heisenberg and Wigner to conclude that consciousness caused quantum state reduction, that consciousness “collapsed the wave function” (the “Copenhagen interpretation”, reflecting the Danish origin of Nils Bohr, its leading proponent). = from http://www.quantumconsciousness.org/Whitehead.htm

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Reduce, Collapse, Actualize, Choose or Decohere = all mean SINGULATION!!!!

Old stuff

I think old anything just doesn't go away, for me. Take old pain - pain from being hurt, pain from being rejected, pain from un-obtainment of the un-obtainable.
MJ said "You were abandoned."...and I kinda fought that, coming up with various and sundry excuses for my Dad leaving me and my Mom. He couldn't handle it, drugs screwed it all up, etc. Do the reasons justify anything? Answering my own questions here - Yes, they help ease the pain and loneliness I feel, sorta. I also feel I still resent my Dad now, occasionally. I don't like the way he treats me, cuts me off, tells me to slow down, be quiet - projected shadows of himself, and a shadow relatedness of our father daughter relationship.
The interest and dependence in sex I will take part of the responsibility for though. I think some of my interest in sex is inherent - the other part (60/40%?) was my early exposure to what I consider a healthy view of sexuality, albeit an overwhelming view. I also think I used my interest in sex, which primarily manifested itself early on in the form of masturbation, to make myself feel better, and as an escape. As an young adult I mistook sex for love - I could hold a man with sex, but didn't have enough self worth or a high enough self-esteem to value myself w/o the sex in a relationship. What could I possibly give some guy except for the world's best blow job?
There have been very few men in my life that have cared enough about me to not have to have the sex part of our relationship take predominance - like Michael and Jim....and I'm still afraid and shy of looking inside myself too - too painful, too much hurt, too much sorrow contained therein.