OK - my wordsmith and the New Yorker are kicking my ass lately; here's the latest list:
1. Prolixity = boring verbosity
2. QED = (I'm not even SURE here what definition to use!) but I'll guess - Abbreviation for quod erat demonstrandum (Latin, meaning "“which was to be proved"”)
3. Orotund = marked by fullness, strength and clarity or sound; sonorous. 2. pompous; bombastic.
4. Insouciant = casual: marked by blithe unconcern.
Sometimes I think I'm only meant to love, not be loved by someone else, not have love, be loved just to me. I may have ended up choosing a path that leaves me alone, but my truest consolation will be to have loved - sharply, poetically, expansively, unequivocally, greatly, otherworldly, truly.
My soul opens up when I love, I become a better person, I'm whole, I get that transcendence I so ardently desire...
Today I wonder if by really deeply loving someone else we can shed our egos, overcome our selfish ego and our self-centered desires...
I think so...
AND most importantly, if you are reading this and wondering "Is she talking about loving me?", then YES! you know that I'm writing about you, and I LOVE YOU!!!
Oh, and lastly, the kind of love I'm talking about doesn't just have to be a person to person kind of love - it can be the love of anything, everything - like nature, like a color, like a great book. As long as you feel it's vivid, compelling, everlasting, eternal, lofty.
The question that remains is that if Saturn is the archetype father planet for the ego, what would be the archetype planet for the mother archetype? (Of course, all this stuff came out/over/through the dream I had the other night, and I really don't know anything about planets and archetypes and all this, so *please*, if you come along on this blog and you can contribute something to the gestation bin, please do!)
I thought maybe the mother archetype planet would the Sun, you know, the Sun gives life, makes things grow, makes warmth, etc. but then I thought maybe it would be the Moon, with it's feminine connections...
What are those planets doing today? I'm overcome with these Saturn (?) revelations this morning, waxing between intimate connectedness and philosophical distance..like,
Man (Humans) are ONLY just a relection of Nature.
Nature is our Psyche.
I think it's Will that can overpower ego.
Or Will can transcend the changes that Ego makes, would be a better way to put it.
So does one does have many types of Egos? - Sexual, Parental, etc. or is there just one? What happens when your Ego dies, or it's shed like a snake skin; what's underneath, below?
I saw, in a dream last night, that the ego was like a version of geology and plate tectonics, where the Ego was akin to a continent, floating atop and around ones true self.. Each continent then could be seen as types of Egos or versions of egos, and of course in each of these continents, geological forces occasionally took over to change the lay of the land, the geography, the tiny foundation of apparent terra firma that lies below...
And thanks to J for then further extending this image to both the oceans (maybe here the image is deep and surface pieces of the ego) and to point out the addition/image of a volcano, and eruption from below to the land level of the self and the ego - what is the magma? What changes on what level are wrought by eruptions? What causes these eruptions? What's is the magma then? (That's one of the most interesting concepts to me right now...)
